Genuinely Honestly Tired
Tired of apologizing
I am exhausted
All of me
And I can’t be sad and sorry
I can’t be sorry for being anymore
Take A Kindness for weakness
Then take An apologetic heart as weakness
Why have you assumed it’s a cheap cheap heart?
You can’t buy an apologetic heart
I am 2k17
I am drained for being
what i feel like. i feel like if you point out your mistakes, they become your flaws. i promise you i was given no manual for life and life choices in the beginning _and if you didn’t share the manual: how to live right in 2k17. why do you bend my heart apologetic 2k17.
All these emotions will fight you,
All these emotions will slave you,
But all these emotions will never lie to you,
All these emotions will guide you.
am sorry that my skin is brown and my blood a shed of red.
am sorry that when i speak i only talk about my daily bread.
am sorry that i milk words from my heart and feed you.
i need you
to understand. understand am growing and these lessons are allowing. me. to express myself.
what i feel like. i feel like you look an extremist on these good days. do you think they are numbered? maybe one more millionth reason to lose it in the moment. damn it 2k17. alright. i need to keep you asleep the rest of your nights. quiet your silence, i need to hear myself decide.
I am apologizing and apologizing for what I do not like,
What I do not want,
What I cannot do and,
Who I have not become.
I am apologizing because I do not like what you like,
I do not want exactly what you want,
I cannot do what you can do and,
I have not become who you want me to be.
I am forgetting what I love,
I am forgetting what it is that I want,
I am forgetting what I have the ability to do and,
I am forgetting who I want to be.
“I’m afraid you’re under the impression that I was made to please you.
I was under the impression you understood me better.”