get Better.

I’ve been on the low

I been taking my time

I feel like I’m out of my mind

It feel like my life aint mine

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An afternoon, a kileton matatu, back row, middle seat. It was hella sunny outside and crazy hot inside. I didn’t have my earphones that day and so, I started contemplating my life. ‘Aki these matatus yawaaah…kwani?…’

That’s when I noticed her. I mean, I noticed her hand gripping her loose-fitting ripped jean. The other hand clenched tightly to the point where there was a slight shake to it. She seemed in her twenties. ’eh…okay…mind your own business Waceke…’

But I still tilted my head upwards. Long black braids. She was looking outside at first, then she turned and our worlds met.

…eye to ocean.

There I had been, seriously grumbling about matatus and life but she…

She had been quietly crying all the while. I mean, I was more than shocked. Too surprised to even speak to her, to ask … but again, should I have asked? Was it in my place to? I still feel like I should have…

And so we sat there in the kileton in silence…all the way to town, her hand still so clenched. She alighted before me…

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Pain don’t hurt the same

The lane I travel feels alone

But I’m moving till my legs give out

I don’t want to cry anymore

Hello Legit Society,

‘I’ve just been really low for a while now and…’

How many of us can find such words when going through the most and give somebody. Tell a friend. Tell a parent. Tell an aunt or uncle to help you figure out what’s happening. Even after all this awareness that a mental concern can get real and be an illness, we still want to figure it out by ourselves. It’s never that serious until the ocean floods. Until you are banging your head against a wall or throwing everything on the floor. It’s never that serious until they start asking why you’ve not been eating right, until the anxiety has you failing. Until they start asking what caused those marks on your wrists. It’s never that serious right.

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If mental illness occurs only in countries abroad, why are there people committing suicide in our own neighborhoods? It seems easier to stay private and simpler to be ignorant or to ‘mind our own businesses’ about this… classifying someone as ‘messed up’ until the damage is done. But isn’t it like sitting down and waiting on a regret?

I’ve been praying for someone to save me

No one’s heroic

I’m hurting deep down but can’t show it

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A million circumstances could have been the cause of the woman’s solemn state. She may never know she left me thinking about all these and more but I hope she is better.

How many friends and relatives, people we don’t know less advantaged are not able to reach such information though? It’s said… “Minorities suffer more from mental illness such as depression due to economic and cultural disadvantages however, cultural stigma regarding counseling and medication prevents many ethnic minority individuals from seeking mental health treatment. “

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What’s on your mind?

They say every life is precious but nobody care about mine.

I can’t fit the shoes of someone going through something at the moment. All our lives and experiences are different and so are our privations. But society, let’s not take for granted the opportunity we’ve been given to know all we have known. It can be that serious so don’t let it. Calm yourself and figure out how to get better.

Find somebody to show you better.

Some signs and symptoms of mental illness include prolonged depression, excessive worries, social withdrawal, poor sleeping and eating habits, delusions, hallucinations, numerous unexplained physical ailments, feelings of extreme highs and lows, suicidal thoughts… and for all these age is just but a number #staywoke.

MENTAL ILLNESS CAN BE TREATED…

Heal where you need to. Take your time society but make sure you get Better.

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model: the beautiful Juliet Mang’ira.

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LÜHV YOURSELF !

Hello Legit Society !

Its been a while family but we are back !☄

I have been writing less, haven’t I? But I want to work on that. What are you working on?

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So, on this MIA period of mine, I spent some time with a friend who I have come to learn so much from. Her experience has elevated her to be such a strong beautiful person inside out and she is not afraid to share. She speaks and writes about self-love on levels I realized many guys were relating to… and so I asked her if she could spread some love to this society.

This is what she had to say….

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It is only when you have truly mastered the art of loving yourself that you can love others. ~Robin S. Sharma

Then what is self-love? I believe self-love is listening to yourself; taking time off for yourself for some self discovery; having honest conversations with yourself; continuously working to better yourself; doing your best to be in line with the actual person you want to be in this life.

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Remember the dreams we had when we were five years old, well it is thirteen or so years later… this is the time to actually set out and achieve them. There isn’t another. You best believe that doing that will take changes. It will require you to cut of so many old habits and people who are not helping your growth process. This may be the hardest part because staying in the normalcy is much easier than breaking away and being an individual. Trust me though, normalcy is not the most beneficial. Some times the universe will push you out of your comfort zone: take this as a positive sign showing you that is not your niche in this world. If you take yourself on as a project, you will always appreciate the experiences that shape you. And in the process you will love yourself.

You alone can be the best version of yourself.

You are an artist at living your work of art is your life. ~Suzuki.

-Tirok Ivy

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Isn’t being you already a blessing. I mean, you are one in more than a billion, literally. There were days , on my wild thoughts after watching Vampire Diaries I would imagine that maybe, just maybe, I do have a doppelgänger and maybe one day we might meet and …you know , background action music and all that ☈ rah! pah!! stuff ..but you all know there’s only one type of you, uniquely created. So legit society , respect and love that person who you is continuously.👣

 

Photogrpher: Shitanda

Models: Tirok Ivy, Waceke.b

BUBBLE

 

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I asked a friend today what is his view on a relation right now. The kind where we group in love.

The grow in love,

The be in love,

The fall in love.

This is what I understood…

Look at us creating a bubble.

And doesn’t it look amazing while it’s growing.

They start from a surface themselves, we start from each other. And that surface joins together to create a space we find each other in, we create space for each other. We create a relation. That space is that relation.

We blow in it so carefully. So damn carefully.

And so it grows.

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Now, the bubble does something to this space.

It sort of delicately secures it.

It secures you. You secure each other. Mentally, emotionally…you find comfort yes? In each other.

This bubble narrows your exposure down to that space.

“That one person.”

 You give some confidence to that.

But

There is this thing about bubbles.

You only find out after you’ve touched this bubble… or after it’s been touched or has touched.

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No one’s  ever bursted a bubble from inside. You must be outside the space, the relation, to burst it. Everything else that isn’t either of you inside that space is usually not able touch, or prick your bubble.

But also, this can happen…

The pressure within can refuse to be contained inside your bubble.

 

Mhhh…but here we are still

Young

Confident

And becoming.

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Thing is,

bubbles are beautiful.

I bet you’ve seen that rainbow thing they form in the sun yah?

 

But

We have to understand them and accept how delicate they are. We have to be poised enough to take the burst when it happens if it does happen. You can’t just look at a bubble and predict the exact millisecond it will burst can you? At least remember, when it does, it doesn’t burst out into a vacuum .

no.

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Dear legit society, be ready to inhale that air.

I mean it’s always been there doing what air does, your life as an individual being has and will always be there

You just took a moment focusing on a specific space, a relation and that’s fine, that’s allowed.

To be in a bubble.

It’s allowed.

 

Why did the bubble cross the road tho?

No. Seriously

Its pop was waiting on the other side

*insert saltguy emoji

 

Gahd, don’t you look Legit!

You doooo!!

 

Don’t you think legit too?

Agree with me and let’s prove someone some thoughts are better written than spoken. There is something sound about written thoughts …something honest about them. Something you can’t take back from them 🙂 . My lawd! I sound poetic as f888. Ops! I forgot to press shift there. Or I should just spell out the whole word now …it’s probably in the dictionary by now. Mh!!  How are you still not laughing right now. Lets take a moment and just LAUGH IN LOUD. Five seconds max .That tiny voice inside your head telling you what I wrote …laugh with it. Because why not!

KANYE YOURSELF.

So, what I’ve learnt today is that you have to kick your own ass.

Be your best critic .Be your own teacher. Be your own coach.

BECAUSE,

Only you know yourself best.

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But most importantly only you know yourself a hundred percent to push yourself right enough 🙂 . Also I learnt,

People have their own lives to live.

Their own shit to deal with. And you. You have your own shit to deal with and that’s the shit you should be dealing with.

You can’t sit and wait for someone else to come and deal with your issues 😦 .  They will not deal with them to the level that you expect them dealt with.

 Because… They are not theirs.

They are yours.

You know them best.

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SO

Deal with them and rest.

Kanye yourself.