NOT TO WINTER.

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It’s hard to see all the blessings you’ve got,

When depression fazes you.

Those times I wonder where He goes.

Does He get too busy?

Does He file my prayers for later?

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Because honestly,

We only honestly connect…

Only when there is honesty.

When I’m pretending to be,

He also isn’t there.

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Funny thing is,

I know I can survive this madness.

Depending on anyone or anything is addiction.

And when that drug isn’t there to satisfy your decisions,

You fall apart in seasons.

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I can’t let myself get to winter,

That’s when you become cold,

Your heart mind soul and body becomes,

Cold.

You don’t give a fuck.

You don’t give to God,

You don’t give to people,

You don’t give to yourself.

You forget yourself,

You forget people,

You forget God.

You become old.

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TOO YOUNG TO BE THIS EMOTIONAL

 

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We are too young to be this emotional

We are too young to be falling this hard

We are too young to be breaking hearts

We are too young to be saying shit we don’t mean to

Haven’t you been dancing with them?

Laughing about the pain you can’t deny

Haven’t you cried?

And felt great, felt shy

Ticked a list and didn’t lie

 

I mean we are too young to be trying

To be whom we aren’t to feel

To feel, right?